Rock and a Hard Place

If you ask any of my friends, they'll probably tell you that I always do my best to try and stay positive in life. I've said it many times before, but it's so much easier to be negative and allow negativity to consume you when things aren't going well. With that being said, I'm human, and sometimes things just aren't great and it's simply not possible to pump out all of that positivity.

I'm feeling a bit caught in a rather unpleasant situation y'all. If I'm being honest, I'm having a challenging time trying to figure out how to plan for my life when so many things seem to be crapping out on me at the same time. As I've mentioned before, I left my last job at the salon prior to my Mexico vacation because of issues surrounding an incredibly painful bunion and the shifting of the bones in my left foot. It has become so incredibly painful to walk that I've been kind of forced to look for a job where I can sit. It has now been 2 months, and I've gotten absolutely nowhere. Two interviews, neither of which produced anything, and I'm still sitting here trying to find a job that fits my needs in a market that is satiated with people looking for work. It's stressful to say the least.

​I'm currently working on my TEFL certification; Teaching English as a Foreign Language. It's a challenging course to say the least, but I'm determined to get the certification. That certification would allow me to teach from home and would limit my having to walk around. It would also give me the opportunity to travel again because I plan to teach from home for a year or so to build my confidence, and then I'd like to apply at schools in either Vietnam, Thailand, or Mexico. I'm trying to remain positive that this is the right decision for me, but it's hard you know? I'm not making much money right now so I'm really trying to find immediate work that accommodates my current situation.

My surgery is not covered under our healthcare. This means I'm stuck with this painful condition in my foot indefinitely. Since I've been cooped up at home, it has alleviated a lot of the pain I was experiencing through working every day, but it isn't gone. Every step I take around my house is calculated to limit the amount of pain I experience. It's such a bummer you guys.

Honestly, I can't say this enough, but LISTEN TO YOUR BODY. Your body gives you signs that you need to do things differently, I simply ignored them and chose to push forward. Now, I'm sitting here like a bump on a log because I let myself get to this point. I will turn this around, but it's hard to stay positive when so many things are simply not going well.

​Love you all.

HAPPY VEG