2 Weeks To Go

The last week has pretty much been a blur. Between finishing at both jobs and saying lots of goodbyes to getting together with friends for what could be the last time for a while, it's been hectic to say the least. Through all of this, I've been consistently reminded of how little time I actually have left to get myself together. 

I've still got a monumental amount of printing and photocopying to do, last minute items needed, and packing to address. It seems so miniscule but based on several half completed to do lists I have scattered all around, there's a lot more to this than I'm thinking. I'm the most organized messy person you'll ever meet which is to say that I've always got everything take care of but I find the most difficult way to get to the end result. I've kind of always been like this, on top of being a worry wart which helps nothing.

This time around, I'm really just going with the flow. I don't want to overwhelm myself with worry when there will be so many new and exciting situations to encounter right off the bat. I really want to try and go into every situation with positivity, curiosity, and excitement without worry or angst. It's refreshing to approach new situations this way, unlike my natural instincts which are to always freak out!

Back when my mother was ill, I had recently been prescribed anxiety medication. I made a decision to stop taking my medication and face my mother's illness head on, clear of mind. Through doing this, I discovered that I could handle just about anything, anxiety aside. I will always be anxious, but I feel like I can handle life without medication. I'm trying to look at being anxious as a positive thing, a form of excitement rather than a nuisance.  This simple change of thought has truly helped me immensely. 

Here I am, 2 weeks from arriving in Dublin, and I feel amazing. Am I nervous? Hell yes I am. Am I anxious about a million things that haven't happened but could? Of course I am! At the end of the day, I attribute this all to being overwhelmingly excited at what my future holds. I'm so excited to take this journey whatever comes of it, I'm ready for the experience.

So am I packed and ready? Nope. And that's ok, because I know I'll be just fine!

HAPPY VEG