How Do I Compare

I was having a chat with my sister this morning regarding some things in her life that are bothering her and I came to the conclusion that I too have some things that I need to hash out. Particularly, my FOMO about living in Dublin. For those of you who don't know, FOMO = Fear of Missing Out. I have serious FOMO about everything I'm missing out on back in Dublin. It's such a weird feeling building a life for yourself somewhere for a year only to walk away from it and pretend like everything is A OK being back home.

Don't get me wrong, it's been such a blessing being able to see my family and friends more often, I certainly don't take that for granted. What I'm missing though is everything I had access to being in Dublin. I was actually just talking about this the other day with some of my coworkers who are about to take trips to various tropical destinations, it's so difficult not being able to just decide I want to go somewhere for 2 or 3 days and being able to do it. I had access to all of Europe and for such an unbelievably low amount of effort. It was as simple as deciding I wanted to go, taking my vacation days, and jetting off for hardly any money whatsoever. I just don't have those opportunities back home in Canada and I'm feeling the travel bug immensely.

I think what I'm most torn up about is how I'm going to make 2020 memorable in any way when it's being compared to the best year of my life. How do I even begin to make this year compare? How do I do something so memorable that 2020 doesn't just fade into history without being in any way, shape, or form, exciting or memorable? It's a tough challenge for sure, one that I still haven't figured out how to approach. I've been home now for 4 months and the novelty has now worn off. I'm constantly missing my life back in Dublin while also trying to figure out what I can do back in Canada to make sure that I have another exceptional year.

I'll tell you, this experience living abroad was definitely a blessing but it's also shaping up to be a bit of a curse as well. I'm determined to to hash out how I can make this year special. I just don't know how yet..

HAPPY VEG