Merry Christmas

You know, I thought today was going to be a lot more brutal than it actually was. I mean, being away from my family and stuff was kind of difficult and I had my moments where I started to think about my mother and miss her a bunch but you know, I think things could be worse. It's important to count your blessings at this time of year especially when you consider how many people are suffering or have nothing. 

As I walked home this morning from work, there was absolutely nothing open which meant all of the places the homeless could hang out to keep warm were closed. There were so many people in their sleeping bags scattered around the city trying to keep warm and I think this is what kind of brought me back down to earth you know? There are so many people out there in the world that are suffering and here I am feeling sorry for myself that I'm alone. It's a stark reminder that we should always be grateful for whatever we have, regardless of how much or little anyone else has. I'm in a new country, I'm taking some exciting trips in the coming months, and I've met some super cool people here, what should I feel sorry about?

I received videos from all of my family back home wishing me a merry Christmas and it truly warmed my heart. It was so great to see all of their smiling faces and feel their love from afar. No matter where I am in the world, family will always be super important to me but I've come to realize in the past few months that I have to learn to let things be. I've been forcing myself on my family to try and fix things here or tweak things there and I've finally realized that I can't do that anymore. I love all of my family so much but it's up to them to create the type of life and relationships they want to create without me interjecting myself.

As I said, leading up to today I thought I was going to feel rough but I think I finally feel content. I've settled in here, I have a family that loves me and I love them back, and I've got several more months of memories to create here in Dublin and I can't wait for it :)

Merry Christmas everyone and much love <3

HAPPY VEG