Stability

It's been a long couple of weeks for me here at the hostel. The hostel itself has been great, the staff here are all wonderful and they've been super accommodating to me but I've been checking in and out repeatedly over the past couple of weeks and with working nights, it's been hell on my body. This morning I came home from work and had to checkout by 10 am so there's this internal struggle happening like, do I sleep for 2 hours, get up, rush and pack, or just stay awake? I always go with option 1 because frankly by the time I get home at 745 am, I'm pretty much dead. The problem is, you wake up from a 2 hour sleep feeling like you were run over before laying down, it's pretty awful lol

What I'm happy about is that I move in to the long term residence as of the 27th which basically means I pay a cheaper price per week and can stay in the same bed and room permanently until I find my own place. This is exactly what I need right now, some stability. Although I've gotten quite used to the hectic lifestyle I've had since I arrived here in Dublin, I crave some kind of stability. Back home, although I worked abundantly and was always busy, I always had a bed to go home to, food to eat, and family and friends close by. Although I've met some cool people here, went for breakfast with a guy, chatted up some of the long terms etc., I haven't really made personal connections that I would consider to be crucial to my happiness. There is a girl from Canada I work with who's had quite a colourful life and I intend to ask her to go for a pint or 6 so we can chat about her crazy life.

What I'm getting at is the yearning for some kind of stability is strong right now. All of the craziness that has surrounded this move like immigration, tax appointments, looking for a place, checking out of my bed a million times, trying to save money, and abandoning the things I love like cooking new recipes and having my own kitchen space, have all sort of made this trip extra crazy to me. Although I do crave stability, it's certainly made this experience more than I could have imagined in that I know I'm much stronger than I thought I was. Don't get me wrong, I'm a pretty strong bitch, but all of this has certainly tested my mental capacity and I feel like I'm coming out on top.

What's next? A month or two of just work and sleep, saving euros, and trying to be as cheap as possible when it comes to eating out and unnecessary spending. Those are my biggest challenges, especially shopping. I stumbled into Penney's which is like Walmart from Canada / U.S. on steroids. Everything was so cheap and there was so much selection, it was the biggest test I've had since I arrived here lol I love to shop but at this point, I have no space in my suitcases and no storage for anything new so I have to watch myself lol Ugh, the trials of being an expat in Dublin :P

HAPPY VEG