Surreal

I've been back in Canada now for 3 weeks and the only word I can use to describe how I'm feeling is surreal. It's such an incredibly weird feeling just coming home and getting right back into the swing of things when a piece of me still remains in Dublin. I don't even feel like I'm fully here if that makes sense. I'm almost on auto pilot, coursing through the days but not being present in them.

Every time I see a post from one of my friends back in Dublin, it really makes me miss being there. I've also found myself scrolling through some of my old photos and videos, reliving some of the fun moments I had throughout the year I was away. This experience was definitely something I'll always remember but participating in this experience comes with some difficulties I'm now enduring. Just wishing I was still there is especially difficult. It's kind of the one downfall of taking part in one of these working holidays because you get to meet all of these amazing people and see all of these amazing things but the experience is finite. It's really effing difficult to leave it all behind.

With that being said, I'm going to try a bit harder to get myself together back here in Canada. I really want to take french lessons, participate in Zumba classes, and continue working on my German lessons as well. I also had the idea to give myself little challenges every week that I would add to my calendar. Like, every week have a little challenge like, "sign up for french classes" or "complete x amount of german lessons" and try to achieve them by the week's end. I really want to be as productive as possible now that I'm here but admittedly, these past weeks have kind of been a bit of a blur.

I guess I just have to take the bad with the good in this situation. Saying goodbye to one of the best experiences of my life is undoubtedly difficult but without these goodbyes, there would never have been the experience. 

HAPPY VEG