What a Time

I haven't written in here for over a month so it's a pretty good time to catch up on everything that's going on. In this past month, I've returned to work at the restaurant under the stipulations of coronavirus which have made things interesting to say the least. We've had to relearn how to operate the restaurant under an entirely new system that accommodates the staff safely and also provides services to people. It's been such a strange experience having people come to pick up food and being unable to really engage with them because they're being kept at a reasonable distance away from me.

I must admit, this virus has really put things in to perspective in terms of not taking anything for granted. Going to the grocery store used to be my favourite weekly thing to do and now it propels me in to nervousness because half of all people don't respect the rules of social distancing. In fact, this past weekend I did my shopping and recognized that they had taken away all of the social distancing markers in the store leading people to just walk all over you without regard. It was nerve wracking tio say the least because it seemed I really couldn't avoid getting too close to anyone. Is it too soon to be loosening restrictions I wondered, but that's not within my control.

I haven't seen my best friends in months, I haven't seen my brother and his family in months, and there's no real indication when I will be able to safely do so. This situation is naturally anxiety inducing but all of the unknowns haven't done much to really quell my nervousness. I'm hearing about things slowly starting to reopen and at the same time hearing about how the cases of the virus in my city continue to rise. Will it be safe to go and visit friends / family even though they're reopening everything? I'm kind of at a loss in terms of how I feel about this whole thing. I don't know for sure that I'm extremely trusting of people enough to go and start mingling with them again without worrying that they have the virus and will pass it to me to give to my dad, sister, and nephews. It's such a scary time to be alive.

I also can't believe the amount of people who have completely disregarded the virus and are demanding things to be reopened. I'm flabbergasted at the lack of concern for each other when I see protests demanding things reopen.  Why isn't everyone as nervous about this virus as I am? Why are people putting themselves at risk? Their families at risk? It's incredibly scary to me that there are so many people who would rather see everything go back to normal without regard for what's going to happen to people's health. Don't they all care that they could make their own families sick? 

I must admit, it's definitely an interesting time to be alive. Watching a virus cripple the entire planet has been eye-opening to say the least. It's certainly proved that we are not indestructible, that something as small as a virus can change the course of the entire planet. Makes you feel a little small in the scheme of things you know? I guess all we can do is continue to do what we're told will keep us safe until we have no choice but to engage with the world and hope for the best. I'm not worried about getting the virus necessarily, I'm more so worried about who I'll give it to. That's my biggest fear at this point.

Stay safe everyone <3 

HAPPY VEG