What to Do Next

With just over 4 months to go before I head back to Canada, I've really started planning what I want my next few steps to be. Obviously I will go back to working on new recipes for the blog and focusing on putting together another ebook featuring photos I've used my DSLR camera for which I think will make the next book so special, but I have a few directions to go with life in general. 

I'm really considering applying for the New Zealand Working Holiday visa. This travel experience has certainly enlightened me to the world of travel to say the least. I always knew I wanted to travel but I never really knew how much I would love it until I actually settled here and started travelling around Europe. There's no sensation quite like wandering the streets of a new place where every person, place, and thing is completely new and exciting. Going to New Zealand would grant me 1 or 2 years at my discretion to travel around Australia, New Zealand, and parts of Asia which I'm sure would be a life altering experience to say the least but I have my hesitations.

Being away from my family and friends back home is difficult for sure but the life experience is most definitely worth it. My hesitations are with relocating and setting up a new life somewhere else again. The process of relocating, living in hostels, moving rooms constantly, sharing rooms with several people, tax appointments etc., this was all so taxing on me for the first 3 months that it almost felt to be too much. Now that I'm 7 months in of course it's been nothing but a wonderful experience since then but it was truly a struggle to get to the point I'm at now and frankly, I didn't really succeed the way I had hoped. Don't get me wrong, I'm proud that after my first try I came back and made this work but there were some shortcomings you know? I was unable to get an apartment because I ran out of money and succumbed to living in the hostel permanently where I frankly overpay for what I get and I didn't start travelling until 3 months into my time here. There was a lot I could have done differently to really make the most of this.

As I said, super proud of myself and happy that I've achieved what I have but it was not easy whatsoever. The thought of having to do all of this all over again so soon after I get home is a bit daunting and weighing heavily on my decision to apply. Like I said, I know it would all be worth it in the end but it was so difficult to get set up that I just don't know if I'm willing to do all of this again. On the opposite side of things, it would allow me some more access to new places in the world I would likely not visit otherwise and give me so many new experiences. It's definitely a struggle to decide whether I want to go through all of this again.

Also, I really want to put all of my attention into developing my blog further. My goal with the blog was always recipes and animal news. I've continued on reporting animal stories from around the globe but I've yet to dive into cooking videos or really develop some food photography skills. This is something I desperately want to do when I get home and I worry that relocating again will put this on hold even further which I'm not sure I'm ready to do. I'd likely get an apartment which would mean I could get pets which is another thing my life is desperately lacking at this point. On the other side of this argument is if I decide to stay in Windsor back home, I'm conceding to staying in Windsor which if you've never lived there let me tell you, there's NOTHING going on. It's such a boring place to live and with the exception of having my family and some great friends, there's not much else worthwhile about that city.

Ugh, as you can see nothing's changed with me. I continue to want to take myself in 100 directions instead of focusing on one and juts putting 100% into it you know? Being creative like this has its drawbacks because I can see myself doing billions of different hings but never get to one of them concretely. I'll never really be personally successful if I don't focus on one direction. What do you guys think??

HAPPY VEG